I am extremely sorry to report that the little calf I asked for prayers on is now dead. Unfortunately, Josh and I found him this morning. This is just one of the reasons that I hate ranching... Everything has it's pros and cons, but this one thing has got to be the worst thing in all of the ranching business- having your stock die. I think it is harder, though, when it is a little calf. First of all, they are our business, our livelihood. We are able to sell the bull calves to other ranchers, and keep the heifers to expand our own herd.
However, when you have found a calf half frozen, taken it in, given it hours of time to try to heal it and get it back on it's feet, then set it back out to pasture only to have it die the next day.... well, it is really hard. Feelings of regret start seeping in. Why didn't we just leave him inside? Why did we take him back out? Why didn't we bring in the mama and fix them up here in the barn??? Why, why, why?? I know that in this situation it wasn't exactly our faults. The mama cow wouldn't let the baby nurse, and baby just wouldn't nurse (didn't even try). In this kind of situation, there isn't a whole lot you can do. Still, we are the caretakers of these animals, and it is tough to see them die.
I love ranching, but when this sort of thing happens, I feel like I hate it.... I just want to cry and wish that it didn't have to happen like this. Still, life moves on, and I suppose that ranching is a great way to teach a person how to move with it. When you have 60 other cows relying on you to take care of them, you can't take too long mourning over one calf. Still, it is awfully hard........
However, God is so good to show us the wonderful things in life, as well as the bad. Just take a look around and you can see what He has done for you. I sometimes think "Snow is fascinating!". Have you ever wondered out how perfectly the crystals are formed so that they aren't ice, but aren't water droplets?? God is so good to us. He reminds me, daily, of His love for me. Even with one calf dying, I can look at the other four we have that are alive, healthy, and beautiful. Thank You, Lord.
I said "no title" to this post because I couldn't really come up with anything.
In Christ's Amazing Love,