... how God uses different circumstances to grow us?? Typically, for me at least, I have to go through a tough struggle to learn what He is trying to teach me. I can't seem to just get it right the first time. *sigh* Still, looking back over the years, I realized that even though, at the time, I hated the trials I went through, I am now thankful because I can see how much I have changed through those trials. Now, I am not being prideful because I know I have a long way to go yet!!
I remember all the times my dear Mama would have to sit me down and talk over something I had done (I could list many things she had to talk to me about!). I always HATED being corrected about anything. So, now I get to tell you about my new adventure!! *wink*
A friend recently suggested that we start a writing club of sorts. We can swap ideas, suggestions, etc, on the the books we are writing. This is really great and is, in fact, an answer to my prayers. See, I was, at one point very recently, really struggling about what I was supposed to do in my life. I knew God had a plan for me, but I felt like I was doing nothing when I should be doing something-I just didn't know what! So, as I was praying one evening in bed, I felt this small voice say, quite clearly, "write your books". For those of you who don't know, my parents had kept telling me I needed to write and publish-that I had a gift the Lord had given me- but I didn't really listen. I wanted to do something more important. (yes, you can see where this is headed.. Pride goeth before the fall...)
See, I had wanted to write books older people (young adults and adults) would enjoy reading. However, my mom told me one day that she really felt like I needed to write children's books. She told me that it was extremely difficult for mom's who are home schooling to find those in between books. You know, ones that are harder than "see the dog. See the dog run. See the boy. See the boy run..." yet slightly easier than those first chapter books like Amelia Bedelia. Well, Satan was using my God given talent to distract me from what I really should be doing. I was letting the craving for fame and popularity cover the real reason I was writing- to glorify God!! I wanted to be known for something instead of focusing on serving others (such as Homeschool Moms) by writing things that would be useful. Sure, I will still write my other little stories that are for older aged children, but I will focus mainly on my other children's stories.
Any how, back to my story... Well, after hearing God's voice telling me to write my books, I was able to go to sleep.. however, "tomorrow's troubles" started pouring in.
"This is great," I told God. "Sure, ok, write my books. Don't I have to finish school and all those knitting projects I need to get done for customers? What about all that? I can't sit around writing all day, not to mention that I need some help with it too. I need someone to encourage, critique, suggest, etc on my books." I was cringing at this thought. When I wrote, I only wanted praise, not critique or suggestions that I knew needed to be heeded. Suddenly a thought popped into my head.. I had "met" several young people on blogger that seemed to be avid writers. What if we could start up an email book club deal? We could swap ideas, suggest things about other's books and whatnot. A little club just like Tolkien and Lewis had.
I didn't really want to start something right away. I wanted to let the idea settle down and grow for a bit before just jumping into things, like I tend to do.
Well, lo and behold, just a couple days ago I got this email from my friend asking if I wanted to start up a little book club! How amazing is that? The Lord is so good and has definitely blessed me with this friend, who is very kind to offer a few compliments, but stick to the point of helping each other with our writing and growing in those skills (which means critiquing each other.. lol! Suggesting things too, or course, so it isn't like we are too hard on each other..)
So, this is my new challenge from God. To learn to accept the suggestions and critique offered to me knowing full well that I can't be perfect right off the bat. Everyone needs a little bit of help, right?
As I embark on this new journey of sorts, I would love for your prayers. I really want to grow in this area, but Satan isn't going to let me do it very easily. No, he will definitely shoot arrows at me from all directions. So, pray that the Lord will help me hold up my shield!!
Also, after some editing and changes are done, I hope to maybe, just MAYBE, share my books with you all as well (if you can twist my arm enough.. hmm, is there a cyber way to twist an arm? he-he!)
On another note, I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas!! We definitely enjoyed our day just relaxing and enjoying each other's company. My mom's Mom came down and spent the night Christmas Eve. Even though she lives right behind us, it was fun to have this little "escapade". I got some lovely things that made me realize how truly blessed I am!! Even friends, whom I have never met in person but are my correspondences and who are very dear to my heart, sent me some goodies!! I was so happy to receive them! It was truly very sweet and I love every single thing they sent (especially the chocolate! lol!)
Chocolate, actually, brings up a funny story... Every Christmas, Mom and Dad send us on a "Treasure hunt" of sorts. They come up with hard clues that lead us to one place or another and eventually to our final presents of the day. So, one of the clues went something like this: "Way down south where bananas grow, a little brown bean waiting to be picked.... If you grind it and sweeten it some, you'll make a woman sing like a lark". Josh piped up "Coffee!!" And started to hurry off to where we keep our coffee grounds. I grabbed him showed him the clue and said, "Make a woman sing like a lark? Chocolate!" Apparently the look I gave him was quite hilarious.... Wish I could have seen it.. lol!
Well, this is a rather random post... sorry about that. I guess random posts are fun every once in a while, right? Or have I been doing random all along?? ;-)
I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas day and are now enjoying some relaxation time. We got a big weekend with Daddy as his office was closed today! So, big plus for us! :-) (poet and didn't know it..)
Tell me what ya did for Christmas.. I would love to hear!
In Christ's Service,